The following is a post that I sent to my children today. I will start with NOW and I will go back in time for everyone! I call this my WTF moment of my life because I really liked thinking that I was in good health and this couldn't possibly happen to me.

I am sorry that I haven't posted everyday. Going to the hospital to have a feeding tube inserted, along with the chemo port, really took alot out of me. I now officially now what it feels like to be stabbed. The feeding tube sticks out of my stomach and is about 6 inches long. They had to poke a hole through my abdominal muscles to get it there and I was in more pain than I thought it would be. Which means, I was on more pain meds than I thought I would be. And, believe me, you wouldn't wanted to have read a post by me while I was all doped up!
I talked to the chemo doctor Wednesday and he spelled everything out for me. I will be at his office all day tomorrow. They will be doing blood work, etc., then I will sit in a nice, comfy chair and have two kinds of chemo dripped into my port for a couple of hours. Then, they are going to attach a pump to my port so that I can go home and have another type of medicine slowly dripped through my port until Friday. Then, Friday I go back, they remove the pump and let me go home for 2 weeks to recuperate. After these 3 weeks, I go back and do the same exact thing for a second round. THEN, after the second round, radiation starts...........
The chemo is going to be killing all fast growing cells in my body, so I may get an upset stomach, my blood counts may get low and I will be prone to infections, and I will lose all my hair. So, yesterday, I took matters into my own hands and let Dawn shave my head for me. It gives me a tiny amount of power over this to make this decision on my own instead of waiting for clumps of hair to fall out. Jenny, Laura and even Sharon were there to cheer me on and take pictures. So, I've attached a few. We decided that I should at least have a mohawk for a few minutes before I was completely bald.
Jennifer sent me the beautiful scarf to wear; it is my new substitute hair!
I won't be going to work very much and would really, really, really love to hear from all of you. Call me........send messages on facebook.............let me know how school, jobs and life are going! Oh, and send me funny links on facebook, too.
I love you all! I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow.